Resolutions

It's that time again: New Year's Resolution Time!!

My resolution this year is: It's all about me
Now, before you get all judge-y and "wow, what a selfish beotch", hear me out:

2011 will be about my taking care of myself. From the regular: get in shape, eat healthy, blah blah blah to meditation classes (I've signed up for a Level I class and it starts in a couple of weeks.. I'm excited!). I'm ready to really start taking care of me.

Oh, and apparently this is the year I'm supposed to find myself a husband. No pressure or anything.
Any advice on how one goes about doing that? Because I'm lost.

What are your New Year's resolutions for 2011? Let's share. Because when you put it in writing.. you have to do it.. right?  hahaha

Farewell to so much more than 2010

While I wish I could write to tell you about my Christmas spent with family and our 5 day trip to Vegas, I only have sad news to share.

My lovely friend, sadly, lost her precious baby girl a few days ago. I don't know all of the details, although they're really not mine to share with you anyway; but, I do know that I'm so sad for my friend, her husband and their little angel.
Please think of them, send them your positive thoughts, and add them to your prayers.

LC: your time with us was short but you've left an impact on the lives of your family and their friends.

Wish I was here

Laying by the pool, mojito in hand... aahhhh.. it was fantastic.

My trip to Mexico was awesome. It was beautiful, relaxing, fun, and food-filled... it was just what I had hoped it would be. We got the gorgeous weather that I had so desperately wanted; and I got the tan that I so desperately needed.
The wedding was so special. There was not a dry eye on the beach (that includes the strangers that stopped to watch the ceremony... THAT includes the man in the aqua-blue Speedo). It was lovely, it was emotional, it was full of love, and it was an honour to be apart of.

That's all I have to share for now because looking at this picture while it pours rain outside.. it's making me depressed.

Update

Phew.. I haven't been here for a while. Here's what's going on with me:
I'm working on getting my anxiety under control. I've started going to see a counsellor. She's helping me deal with the underlying issues that are manifesting themselves as anxiety. I'm 2 sessions in and I think it's going great.
I've also started going to meditation classes. These have been amazing!
I'm on the path to finding balance in my life and I'm excited about the journey.

I'm heading to Mexico next week.
My sister and mom are coming with me to the Mayan Riviera for my friend's wedding. I'm really looking forward to taking some time to do nothing. I have every intention of sitting in the sun, with a good book and an umbrella drink, for a week and not worrying about anything except rotating often enough to get an even tan.

I hope to write another post before Mexico but if I don't:  Hasta luego mis amigas!

Little Creature

A friend of mine is pregnant. She's due in December so.. it's safe to say that she's very pregnant. For a while, her and her husband have known the sex of their baby but did not share the information. As a result, I affectionately referred to her unborn child as "Creature" (I promise.. it's with affection!!).

Today, I found out that Creature is a girl.

This thought, that in a few months my friend is going to have a beautiful little baby swaddled in pink, this thought has brought tears to my eyes several times today. 

I hope that this friend knows that even though we don't see each other very often or don't talk to each other on the phone every day, I think of her often. I send her loving, happy, peaceful thoughts.

I think that she is going to make a wonderful mother to her baby girl. And I can't wait to meet Creature, she is one lucky little girl.

I do love me some comedy!

Picture from the River Rock Casino website

I'm going to see Kathy Griffin at the River Rock Casino tonight with my sister. Woohoo!!

I didn't know that she was coming to town until I happened to see her Tweet (yet another reason that Twitter is awesome) about her weekend schedule.
So, a frantic, at work, online purchase was made and my weekend plans were born. I love the last minute plans, don't you? They often turn out to be the most fun!

Have a great weekend!

It looks like I was right!

I joke about having "issues" all the time.. hell, it's right there in the title of my blog! But apparently, I was right.

I've been feeling a little "off" lately. The best way to describe what I was feeling is to say that I had the worst case of nervous I've ever felt. You know: the butterflies in the stomach/ knot in your chest kind of nervous. I also felt really overwhelmed by things that normally would not overwhelm me. Opening my work email to find 10 unread emails, not unusual; feeling really overwhelmed by these 10 unread emails, that was unusual.

After one particularly bad "episode" - I won't go into details but it involves an irrational reaction to overcooked potatoes, the need to leave the situation immediately, and uncontrollable tears - I decided to go and talk to my doctor and... I do have ISSUES! 
Actually, I have Anxiety. Anxiety brought on by stress to be exact. I am now walking around with 10 little "emergency" pills in my purse and am attempting to "identify the triggers of my anxiety". I'll tell you: knowing that you have 10 "emergency" pills in your purse and you're supposed to be "identifying triggers" makes you a little anxious. (and I don't think that this is the purpose of either the pills or task). But I'm working on figuring out what makes me anxious and how I can either avoid these things or handle them if they are unavoidable.

I originally was not going to blog about this. I thought that it was something private going on in my life that I didn't really want to share. Then I realized that this blog is about my private life. It's about me and what's going on with me.
I also thought that this post will probably help to explain this post.
Another reason I decided to blog about my anxiety is because I think that too many people are embarrassed to talk about anything that involves mental health. Anxiety Disorders, Depression, Postpartum Depression, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, these are all things that are real and that should not be ignored or hidden. My opinion is that while some people may need medication, all people need support. And no one can offer support if they are unaware of what's going on in your life.

I don't know how many people read this blog, but I hope that I can include you in my support system as I work on this, one of my many issues.