Wow... I haven't been here for a while.
Let's see, excuses: I've been really busy at work, there hasn't really been anything blog-worthy going on, I've been really lazy. Yup, that just about covers it.
And the April/May update in bullet points:
- booked a trip to Hawaii for August - WOOHOO!!! I'm meeting my cousin and his family there for a week and I'm really looking forward to it. It's my first trip to Hawaii so, double yay!
- Canucks are going to the Stanley Cup finals! Another "woohoo". This really has nothing to do with me directly, but I'm excited none-the-less.
- I'm about half way through my meditation classes and I'm learning a lot. I'm trying to put the lessons from the classes into practice everyday and I'm enjoying the guaranteed 2 hours of ME time every week.
See.. nothing blog-worthy.
It's my birthday on Saturday and while it's not a traditional Milestone birthday, it's a personal Milestone and it's making me rather depressed.
I always said that by 26, I'd have my ducks in a row. You know: career, marriage, heading toward kids.. those ducks: however, I feel like my eggs haven't even hatched yet! So, I don't have any ducks and I sure as hell don't have them in a row.
And I know, I know.. "26 is young, you have plenty of time..blah, blah, blah" and that makes perfect logical sense. I tell myself that in my head all the time. But somewhere.. not in my head.. I just feel like I've failed to achieve any of the things that I had intended on achieving by this age.
I might have the eggs that will one day hatch that I can place in a row.. but right now, I feel like my eggs may just be eggs.. like.. chicken eggs, for breakfast, that I can scramble up with some spinach and feta and make a good meal from... but that won't hatch in to ducks and that I can't put in a row. And it's that thought that makes me want to not tell anyone that it's my birthday and just curl up in bed and not think about birds of any kind.
Well, while I will tell you that you are not really considered old until you turn 30 (sob!), I won't give you the whole ''you're still young" etc, etc crap either... so my piece of wisdom for you is this - you're 26 now, get your shit together already! :p
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